Disclaimer: “I am a Niche Parent Network & Conference influencer and received compensation for this post and to attend Essence Festival as a My Black is Beautiful Social Media Correspondent. All opinions are my own.”
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So I had this “issue”. Yep and I know I am not the only one who has suffered from this “issue”, but the key words is that I HAD it, yet I suffer no more from it. About a year ago, if you scrolled through my phone, my photo albums, looked at the pictures on my wall, or even checked out my Facebook, you primarily saw only pictures of my kids and family. Rarely you would catch a picture of me, but any picture of me had to be Flawless. By Flawless, I mean I had to look like the Diva that I am…no messy hair pictures, no pictures where I was caught off guard, and if you could find a picture without makeup on…that’s only because you took the picture without me knowing. While I don’t wear makeup everyday, and in fact I don’t step out the door Flawless everyday, that was the perception that ALL of my pictures gave you. That “I woke up like this, with my face full of makeup, hair completely in place, and the hottest outfit from my closet on my body” perception. It was the perception that I wanted everyone to see because heck, it was the perception that I was most comfortable with. I didn’t accept or think that anyone should see that I have bad days…especially not bad hair days and to let you know that I have a zit, wow that would be a crime. I had an issue accepting me for who I was on a daily PHYSICALLY – Good days weren’t good enough, Bad days made me feel horrible, and those UGLY days…I just wanted to crawl up under a rock. The picture below is the perception I wanted everyone to have of me, because it was what I was most comfortable with.